Back in the beginning of 2016 I made a conscious desision to show up everywhere I went. Now that may sound idiotic to some but hear me out…As someone who had become masterful at switching from mask to mask and giving the version of myself that I felt the situation dictated I wound up losing myself somewhere in there. Showing up is not only scary but seemingly impossible when you’ve never shown up as yourself before. So in 2016’s adolecence I decided that however I felt that given day was how I was going to present myself. Sad, happy, giddy, meloncoly, ect…In essence “It is what it is”! As the year progressed however I realized that I was still not giving my true authentic self.
Let me explain: No person on this planet is one dimentional. We are not presented each day with one emotion to feel and express. We ,as human beings, are mutifacited and complex. That is a part of the beauty of our design. One feeling we may experience doesn’t have to override all of our other feelings. By no means would I tell anyone to ignore what feels like the dominant feeling, but I do know that we have the ability to choose our behaviors, as we are not governed by our instincts.
Back to me: So what I thought “showing up” looked like was me only giving voice to my base instinct. Not truly showing up in fullness or truth. How I felt was not who I was! I had to figure out how to show up/Clock into life.
Taking on the responsibilities of my titles helped. For example: I’m a dog owner. With that I have to make sure that he is feed, in good health, exercised, and happy. Those are the duties I took on when I decided to become his owner. Do I always feel like spending my time /resources and mind on my animal?? NO! I get lazy, today its cold or raining outside and I don’t feel like walking him, he seems healthy so are his veteranary visits REALLY necessary, I’ve had a long day do I have to play with him? YES!!
If I’m your Employee, Coworker, Daughter, Son, Parent, Friend, Husband, Wife, Family Member…or simply a Christian all of these titles come with implied responsibilities. If I’m going to truly clock into life I have to show up ready to fufill those responsibilities to you with the energy and heart that only I can. You can cheat one another out of experiencing the true you when you don’t clock in. When we half ass life based on our emotions. Show up human, frail, happy, sad…just please show up. You are fearfully and wonderfully made and I can only get you from you. Please don’t cheat the world out of YOU! God only made one, and I want what you’re here to give. Clock IN!!!