So, about a year ago I got these two small tatoo’s on my fingers. Now I’m no stranger to tattoo’s, as prior to this, I had already aquired 15 of them. I knew that I wanted a crown, but the whole on my finger thing came about out of a whim. I wanted something that would represent “Wear the Crown” and thought to myself, DUH!! Get a crown! But as I started to do my research and go into different tattoo shops I realized that not only do tons of tattoo artists refuse to do finger tattoos, if you can get them to do one it will come with a disclaimer.
Disclaimer: The skin on the hands and feet is different from the skin on the rest of the body. Tattos will most often fade quicker, not take under the skin, or bleed onto itself with no clear or difenitive lines….
No tattoo artist wanted to be responsible for spending time and creativity on something that won’t stand a chance of reflecting their abilities due to the nature of our body. Also they didn’t trust that the consumer had the sense to fully undestand the risk they were taking and live with it’s consequences without holding the artist accountable.
With that being said, I wanted my tattoo. So eventually I found someone who agreed to do it. Not only did he agree after giving me the weighty disclaimer he gave me such a good price I asked if he could do another tattoo on the adjacent finger. Shaking his head he looked at me and said ok, what would you like. Now this part I hadn’t given much thought…so I quickly, and without much thought said a cross. Can’t really go wrong with a cross, I thought. About 45min later I walked away satisfied. As with all of my tattoos, when they are first completed thay are magnificent. So nicely colored in and perfect. About two days later…the healing process began.
Now the goal in allowing a tattoo to heal is to truly let nature take its course. Meaning…No picking at it, allowing nothing to rub up against it, keeping it covered as well as uncovered so as to not pull away any of the color so meticulously placed in your body. Its really quite ugly during this process. Looking nothing like it did when you left the shop you would have some parts thick and scabby as well as some flat and shiny or even dull looking. It would all come together in the end if treated right.
My crown was healing beautifully. Being that these tattoos were so small I expected it to be a breeze. But the cross…AHHHHHHH! I wanted to scream. Why did I have to add on the cross?? It looked horrible. For some reason I kept hitting that finger up against things, All the ink seamed to be seeping out of it and it was just all around painful. About a week in and the cross still hadn’t healed fully. I could tell that when it was done it would be ugly. I’m not sure where I was or what I was doing when something inside of me said, “the crown will always look and feel more appealing than the cross”. Now in the physical sense I was like “I see”, but it took a couple of weeks before my spirit began to comprehend that the price of the crown was the cross and that I needed that uncomfortable, ugly, painful, and necessary cross and all of its “weight” in order to be able to handle to “weight” of the crown. As bad as the cross felt and looked I needed it. It has become more precious to me than the crown. Don’t get me wrong, I value my crown and seek to wear it everyday, but I know that I could never properly value the crown until I saw that it consisted of me bearing my cross.